I woke up this morning to the song spooling through my head, so disregard the previous non-clover statements. I couldn't resist the pull of the Shondells. Who can? Not I, said the ginger.
The wicked winter here on the East coast we tender Virginians have suffered through seems to have slunk off to plot next years assault. Spring is raising a sleepy head and taking a quick look around to see if the coast is clear, pushing up crocus flowers and daffodil shoots as she rises. It's a hopeful time of year, the new green renewing our hope for revived life, giving us a promise of wonderful and lush things to come. The weeds have yet to rear their unwelcome heads, and I'm thankful for the short time I have to admire the flowerbeds in the yard without the nagging urge to tidy them up. Don't get me wrong-there are many plants that grow wild here that some consider pests, unwelcome stragglers that wander into well tended beds that I welcome with open arms. Weeds are subjective, like most anything might well be. Some have a beauty that rivals the most carefully cultivated botany, and are hearty enough to survive even my tender ministrations. There are some, however, that if I don't nip in the bud would gladly run amok and strangle out the deliberate plantings. Clover, no matter how delicately beautiful their pinkish balls of cottony flowers, are one weed that I gladly yank out with vigor. I can safely say that no one would ever accuse me of being overly zealous with my gardening, but I try to keep it all within a certain balance.
I had to stop and put away my manuscript for the same reason. I have weeded out the glaring mistakes in the plot line, corrected my many attempts to write sentences without all the required words, and filled in holes that needed filled. It was almost a complete rewrite, and according to my proof readers the book has become stronger, more intricate, and a better read all around. Caught up in weeding out mistakes, I began to do more than that, and began falling down the rabbit hole of perfection. Not that it is perfect, mind you. It's a mindset. At some point I realized that all I was doing was delaying the inevitable. Submission. I had already submitted the unchanged manuscript twice, with predictable results. Rejection is par for the course in this business, but it still stings. Trying to achieve the impossible perfect book was a way for me to avoid those slings and arrows, and once I realized it, I took off the gardening gloves, put the hoe away, and started showing my garden to other people. I'm still collecting rejections, yes, but having come to terms with the fickle nature of the publishing industry, I will let the book stand on it's own merits and continue to parade it before agents until I am accepted by one. Meanwhile, work on the second book is underway,along with two short stories I picked up inspiration for last week that I'm making notes on. A passionate reader is what I used to be, a writer is what I want to be, and by god a writer is what I shall be. Time will tell if I am a successful one or not, if success is measured in publication. I have already achieved a major goal in my life already-to write a good book-and in my mind that makes me a success already. All else is frosting.
Mmmmm. Cake.
